Praying for my Light to comeCrying only helps the heart for a little while. Then all the thoughts and memories come hitting back at your wounds with even more force and makes it all hurt again. You scream, you cry, you ask why, and no answers are ever found. They just sit there like a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. Why can't this hurt go away already?! Have I not suffered enough?! I have already lost my warmth and light! Why must you remind me everyday! Why must you put Me through this?! That light said they would stay, but nay! They they throw me into the dark abyss with their silence and shunning! Why can't that light stay and make it all go away with their friendly words? Be my light! Bring me out of the dark once again my true friend! Save a friend from their own thoughts and fears. Wipe away my tears and help me defeat all my fears. dear friend I PRAY that you will come back one day. Until then that is all I can do, Pray that you will one day come back and set this pain free.
Dying InsideYou know that feeling deep down in your soul? That the light and warmth are fading? Feeling that excruciating pain rocking and ruthlessly tearing your soul slowly apart. Can you feel that? Felling that you are spiraling down back into that dark place? Where is that one person who kept that light and warmth glowing, spreading and continuously fighting back that darkness? Where are they now? Do they still care? Where are they to keep that darkness back from your soul? Where did all of it go? Why did it all have to go so suddenly? Do they care how much you hurt? That you would do anything to go back and fix all your wrongs? Wishing and hoping that they will come and take all that pain away again. Did they not see the the hurt, suffering in your soul? Where is their love and mercy?!
You can't stop yourself from thinking and crying. They gave you so much and now all of it is gone. You wonder what you could have done to make it all right. You beat yourself up over every stupid mistake. You c